The Tour du Canada

Yesterday afternoon 25 cyclists slogged up the two kilometres of Signal Hill in St. John’s, Newfoundland, completing their journey of 7550 kilometres (about 4700 miles) across Canada.  They had started mid-June in Vancouver, BC, and averaged around 130 kilometres per day.  My goodness.

For at least ten years, I’ve dreamed of joining them.  It’s an adventure which I will experience before I die.  I can feel that deep inside.  My plan was to do the ride this summer, right after retiring, but Jody’s illness prevented that from happening.  I need to be at her side.

Let’s say I cross my country in 2016.  I’ll be 67 then, not exactly the oldest rider to do the deed, but getting up there.  As a 50-year-old, I defined myself as a slow cyclist, so what about 17 years later?  The bottom line question: Would anyone in the group be willing to ride with me on the daily spin, or would my time on the bike be spent alone?  I like to think they’ll be a few takers.  Speaking most stereotypically, I don’t expect my companions on the road to include any 20-year-old men.  I bet they’d be busting their buns to be the first ones into the next campground.  Oh well.  Sometimes I dream of speed, but not much.  I want to see the world passing by, not be gazing at the rear tire of the rider ahead, only six inches from my front one.

Here’s some more wants:

1.  To become friends with my fellow riders, perhaps at a level that I’ve never experienced before.  After all, we’ll be fighting the wind, the rain, the hills, injuries, illness and our own emotions.  Each of us will have off-days, times when our self-esteem hangs by a thread, times when someone else’s personality will be oil to my water.  We have to take care of each other.  The possible overwhelm could easily lead to tears, even male tears.  I need to be kind, and graciously receive others’ kindness in return.

2.  To meet Canadians all across this fair land.  If I’m riding through a Saskatchewan town, past the general store, and spy an elderly gentleman sitting on the porch, pulling on his pipe … I’m going to stop and say hi.  Have a nice chat about the Prairies and about riding (assuming that he’s fine with talking).  I know that many communities, ones who welcome Tour du Canada folks year after year, put on breakfasts or dinners for the riders.  Truly a golden opportunity to blab at length to every Mary and Bob that I can find – young, old and anywhere in the middle.  I like to think that my spirit will flow into them, and theirs into me.

3.  To blog my fingers off from Vancouver Island to the Maritimes.  The organizer of the tour told me that most campgrounds which they use are wireless, so I can cozy up to my laptop for half an hour each evening and wax poetic about the events of the day.  I’ll be sure to mention lots about the peanut butter and jam sandwiches that are a lunchtime staple.

As is the case with the blog you’re reading right now, I won’t know if I’m reaching a lot of people or just a few.  Now and in the future, both results are fine.  As long as someone is out there, I’m good!

As wise people often say when thinking about a life experience, there’s the anticipation of the event, the event itself, and the memories.  I know that all three will be mine.  As for now, Part A is a lot of fun.

 

No Deficit

The idea was that I’d wake up this morning in Utica, New York, but it just didn’t turn out.  Many months ago, I registered for a ten-day retreat, from August 1st to 10th, at the Insight Meditation Society in Barre, Massachusetts.  At that time, I didn’t know what Jody’s health would be like when August rolled around, but if I didn’t register early there’d be no way I could attend.  Jody is making remarkable progress in fighting her cancer but I need to be with her every day.  So a couple of weeks ago I cancelled the registration.

I’ve been to three previous retreats at IMS and I’ve loved the rhythm of my travelling to and from each time.  I take a day-and-a-half and drive on quiet paved roads through Southern Ontario, New York and Massachusetts to Barre.

I would have left Union yesterday, about 8:00 am.  As the time approached, and ever since, I’ve been fascinated by the smile gracing my face.  Does part of me wish that I was on the road to IMS?  Yes.  Am I sad that this isn’t happening?  Strangely, no.  I’m happy to be with my wife.  I’m smiling about the great memories I accumulated on the other trips.  As I sit here right now, I feel like an open window, and the breeze is blowing through.  Sublime and wondrous.  Still, do I want to go back to IMS?  Yes.  Would it be okay if I never did?  Yes again.  And one more time … how can that be?

Okay, Bruce – enough.  Time to stop the analysis and just bathe in the moonlight.

Here are the moments I’ve been happily reliving.  So much for the here and now, but that’s okay.  The reminiscing has made me happy.

Thursday, July 31

Setting off in Hugo for the great beyond.

Driving only the speed limit in Ontario on the way to Fort Erie and Buffalo.  Glad to see the trees, fields and animules.

Chatting with the US border guard in Buffalo.  I was looking forward to the contact.

Getting lost in Buffalo (every time) as I tried to blend from freeway to the slow but sure Highway 20.  Finding a Buffalonian to give me directions.

Bipping eastward along New York 20, without a care in the world.  Loving all the American flags I see on people’s houses.

Stretching to get to Seneca Falls near the Finger Lakes before 2:00, when a cute greasy spoon on Main Street closes at the end of lunch.  Success rate: 1 out of 3.  Good conversation with the owner and the waitress.

LIngering a bit at a gift shop in downtown Skaneateles (pronounced “Skinny Atlas”) at the head of one of the Finger Lakes.  More good talk.

Turning north off 20 at Bridgewater, heading to nearby Utica.  I always take the downtown exit and always get marginally lost before I find the street containing Denny’s, Babe Macaroni’s, and the Red Roof Inn.  It’s fun, actually.

Unpacking at the Red Roof, far from any ice machine.  Just me and my room.

Haltingly, I locate the Utica train station, with its marble pillars and high ceilings.  This holds the only pay phones I’ve been able to find in town.  I phone Jodiette and have fun telling her of the day’s adventures.  One time a wedding reception filled the station.  Jody loved my descriptions of the glittering celebrants.

Off to supper at Babe Macaroni’s, your basic fun roadhouse.  Pigged out on a burger or some such, a large beer and big screen sports.

Walked downtown to see what was happening.  Most places were closed, which was fine.  Felt a teensy bit like a Utica resident.

Back to my room.  Pooped.  And so to bed.

Friday, August 1

Up early, shower and shave, short walk to Denny’s for breckie.  On the way, leaned over the bridge to check out the sparse traffic on the canal.

Lots of food, including yummy fruit.  Always a friendly server.  Talked a little about meditation to one of them.

Off Hugo and I go into the wild blue yonder eastward.  Hills getting higher, traffic stays easy going.  It’s all lovely.

I arrive at the western edge of Albany, New York.  I avoid the freeway that skirts the city and point my nose downtown.  Gorgeous century homes on either side.  And … I always get lost.  Just can’t seem to find my way across the river to Troy and beyond.  Love it.  There’s always some helpful New Yorker to show me the way.

Hugo climbs the western slopes of the Berkshire Mountains in a low gear, till we crest at the border of Massachusetts.  Treed right to the top, those mountains.  I look for James Taylor on the roadside but never locate him.

At a hairpin turn above the movie-settish North Adams, I wave hello to the Golden Eagle Restaurant, which offers a “way down there” view from its balcony.  On my return trip west, I’ll definitely be having a broad view of life as I eat supper there.

Curvy road by a lake, lots of big trees, as I wind my way towards Barre.

I roll into the town common and saunter over to the window offering a huge bell for customers to ring.  And I just have to ring it!  Order a Moose Tracks waffle cone and settle down on a park bench for slow licking and contemplation of the next ten days.

At around 3:00 pm (today!) I drive three miles up Pleasant Street to find an old mansion on my right, the home of the Insight Meditation Society.  Home indeed.

Right now, it’s about 11:00 pm.  In my reminiscing life, I’ll have enjoyed an evening talk given by one of the teachers, sipped my tea on a moonlit bench outside the front door, and toddled off to bed.  Sleeping softly right now, I’d wager.

It’s as if I’m there, so very much there.  And it’s truly okay that I’m not.