A minute’s walk from my home sits the Zuivelbrug (“Dairy Bridge” in English). The name comes from the nearby Botermarkt, where milk and cheese were sold for probably centuries.
The Leie River flows below. And my friend the weeping willow says “Hi” every morning.
A few days ago it was windy and the light green branches waved in the breeze, their tips just above the surface of the water. Ahh … but one touched the wetness. I stood transfixed on the Zuivelbrug watching the dance, because that’s what it was. Nature saying hello to the flow of human beings.
And another miracle. Under the tree, on the tiniest island, sat a big black bird, preening him- or herself. I came close for a picture. No problem for the birdie. There was still work to be done.
I like women more than men, with occasional exceptions. So I was most thrilled yesterday to watch the women climb the Muur.
The legs pumping! The heart throbbing! And me watching!
It’s sad that the crowds were sparse compared to the men’s race. All elite athletes should be appreciated.
I watched faces on the climb – torn, gasping for air, determined.
After all the women had come by, I turned to the right and took a photo of the uphill beyond. The gradient here is about 18 percent. That’s steep! For the legs and lungs.
The iconic spot to watch the Omloop on the Muur is further up, in sight of the Oudenberg Chapel (English translation) at the peak. The church was built in 1906, “though a place of worship has existed on this site since at least 1294.”
Here’s a photo from the Internet of Omloop action:
I had been in the middle of cheering and yelling but now my hand was on the door of the chapel. Would it open?
Yes
I sat in the presence of candles, flowers and sacred statues. Not a bicycle to be seen. Not a sound to be heard.
It’s the first major cycling race of the season in Belgium. It has cobblestones, brutal climbs, and distance (207 kilometres for the men and 137 for the women).
It starts right here near Gent’s ‘t Kuipke velodrome, which was built 99 years ago, destroyed in a fire in 1962, and rebuilt 59 years ago.
We’ve just finished the presentation of the men’s teams inside a full ‘t Kuipke.
At one point, the host invited us to take off our scarves and wave them in unison. Hundreds of scarves were soaring. Since I don’t wear a scarf, I had nothing to rotate … except my mind.
Wout Van Aert is the Belgian cycling hero. He was supposed to battle The Netherlands’ Mathieu van der Poel today, but Wout got sick. I’m sad that there’ll be no mano-a-mano.
However, we the ‘t Kuipke cycling fans sang to the absent hero:
We love you, Wout! Oh yes we do
The melody burst through the velodrome and zoomed 90 kilometres to Wout’s home in Herentals, Belgium.
The men have set off on their 200 kilometre journey and I await the women’s team presentation.
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Thunderous cheers in ‘t Kuipke as Lotte Kopecky rides up to the stage. She’s another Belgian hero.
And now outside, for the beginning of the women’s race.
Moto drivers and riders ready to go … for race support.
They’re off!
Then the train to Geraardsbergen. I sat with the parents of Alison Jackson, a Canadian cyclist who will tackle the Muur van Geraardsbergen about an hour from now.
Mathieu van der Poel on the Muur, just after breaking away from his two companions. I just read that he won the race.
I’m sitting on the terrace of Café de Muur. And I’m about to walk up the hill again to see the women grunt up the cobbles.
That’s all for today. My finger is tired. See you tomorrow.
It’s a John Denver song that I’ve loved for a very long time. It was written by John and Joe Henry. I bet I’ve listened to it one hundred times … and I’ve sung it to people once. In eight days, I’ll sing it at an open mic session in Gent.
Many of the words and phrases keep deepening in me. Perhaps that will continue for the rest of my life. So what chance does next week’s audience have to absorb the messages into their hearts? I don’t know. At least I will plant a seed.
And right now, when I give you a taste of the lyrics, will you feel a twinge of recognition, an unexplainable awe … or will it just be another song? I don’t know again.
I could try to explain John and Joe’s words, but that’s silly. It would be how they’ve landed in me. Your listening may be far away from mine.
So here goes, with what I enjoy most in The Wings That Fly Us Home:
Is a jewel just a pebble that found a way to shine? Is a hero’s blood more righteous than a hobo’s sip of wine?
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I dreamed you were a prophet in a meadow I dreamed I was a mountain in the wind
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The vision of your goodness will sustain me through the cold Take my hand now to remember when you find yourself alone You’re never alone
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And the spirit fills the darkness of the heavens It fills the endless yearning of the soul It lives within a star too far to dream of It lives within each part and is the whole It’s the fire and the wings that fly us home
Long ago, some professor told us about “content analysis”. There were no doubt many layers of meaning but all I remember is the frequency of certain words in a written passage.
Or simply their presence.
I’m healthy … and old. Death seeps into my thoughts. Often I’m drawn to poetry rather than prose. And so to Mary Oliver. She has spoken to me for a very long time. Mary opens me.
Here is a lovely poem called “Lead”. If there’s a future time when I’ll no longer be able to compose or absorb sentences, perhaps I’ll be able to linger with certain words. Mary’s creation has a few that I savour:
Here is a story to break your heart Are you willing?
This winter the loons came to our harbor and died, one by one of nothing we could see
A friend told me of one on the shore that lifted its head and opened the elegant beak and cried out in the long, sweet savoring of its life which, if you have heard it you know is a sacred thing
The next morning this loon, speckled and iridescent and with a plan to fly home to some hidden lake was dead on the shore
And for which, if you have not heard it you had better hurry to where they still sing and, believe me, tell no one just where that is
I tell you this to break your heart by which I mean only that it break open and never close again to the rest of the world
I have two friends whose lives are especially shining right now. One is 12-years-old, fighting for her life in a hospital. The other is in her early 70s, wondering if death is near.
And there’s everyone in between, also leading vibrant lives, simply wanting to be happy.
There we all are in the photo. It’s hard to pick out the individual lives. The image is small even though the heart is big. There are triumphs and disappointments, joys and sorrows, strength and weakness.
Let your eyes soften and see the tapestry here … swaths of light and dark, peppered with spots of colour. It’s us.
I like the world “tapestry”. Beyond “a wall hanging” is a musing …
In the tapestry of life, we’re all connected. Each one of us is a gift to those around us helping each other be who we are, weaving a perfect picture together
A friend of mine sees her death on the horizon. Medical staff are starting to use the word “hospice”.
Sad … yes. And also magnificent. What a life she’s had, contributing to the lives of thousands of people.
I just wrote to her …
Yuh done good
And really, haven’t we all? Even those among us who appear to be mean-spirited have a sweetness of care beneath. For some of us, the caring bursts forth every day, maybe every hour. Effortless love.
I’m gazing at all the folks who have peopled my life, and imagining those yet to come.
All you have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to you
(Gandalf to Frodo, The Lord of the Rings)
Take today, for instance. I have very little energy for doing. This post will likely be short. I don’t appear to have the oomph to sit in my chair and meditate. Going to the gym or practicing the cello reside in another universe.
The pain in my mouth is six days old. It comes and goes. And the coming part definitely gets my attention!
I’ve made my bed ever since I was a kid … but not for the past few days. Today I figure I’ll be slipping under the covers before noon.
So there’s not much doing in my immediate life. Okay … how about being?
I’m sitting in Lloyd Coffee Eatery on the Langemunt. It’s my favourite place for scribbling about life (actually tapping). And here comes being … sipping on my flat white and taking in the beauty of folks in the coffee shop, and those walking in the rain outside.
I’ll be back in fifteen minutes or so …
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Such variety! Human beings left, right and centre. Any adjective you can think of. And I’m a part of this – joining, not separating.
And speaking of lingering in life, I spilled coffee on my jeans an hour ago. I took my water bottle and splashed water on the stains. And I just decided: I’ll sit here till my pants are dry. Just for fun.
Perhaps the mirror would be other people’s eyes. I don’t see me very well. But they do … at least some of them.
I’ve been in physical pain the last few days. My vision of Bruce is especially untrustworthy right now. It’s clouded, full of blacks and browns. I need to walk out into the street and talk to someone who truly knows me. To look into their eyes and glimpse what they see.
I hope they see kindness, but that image of myself is escaping me right now. Mostly, I just want to pull the covers up to my chin.
And that’s okay.
Even in healthy moments, are we human beings unreliable in our seeing of self? Give me the mirror please, and let me linger in my wrinkles, blemishes, my occasional smallnesses, and most especially … my love.
Out in the world, there is a lot of blindness, such as shown in Peter Coyote’s words. (That’s his face at the top, by the way)
We all know what anger is. We all know what hatred is. We’ve all known people who have hated haters and failed to perceive any irony in that posture. I’ve attended “peace meetings” where people screamed at one another for over an hour.The mind tricks us all the time.
Sometimes I’m tricked. Sometimes my mirror is crystal clear. I’m both.
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