This afternoon I was one of 240 people showing up to experience the work of the Evolutionary Collective, as facilitated by Patricia Albere, the organization’s founder. We showed up virtually – on Zoom. The technology allows us to view 25 people at a time on our computer screens. Amazing … all in real time. Some of the folks online today chose not to turn their video on, so their little rectangles were blank, save for their name. I’m guessing that 200 of us were visible to all of us.
Clicking on an arrow, again and again, allowed me to see 200 human beings. It took my breath away. Young folks, old ones and in-betweens. Men and women. All the way from sitting erect to almost lying down. An infinity of clothing choices, and of living rooms.
I had never experienced such a volume of intimacy.
There’s a love that doesn’t require time, history, shared events. I felt that love today. And I decided to express it. I would look at each face and say “I love you.”
I started. Zoom sets it up with five rows of five people. In the top row is the person who logged in on this computer (in my case – me!) and four more folks. I was second from the left. I looked at the woman in the top left corner and said “I love you.” Then I skipped me and addressed the third, fourth and fifth person in order.
Then it hit me “I left out Bruce.” Hmm … such a common mistake in the world of humanity.
So I began again. In the back of my head was the thought “How am I going to say “I love you” to 240 people and still listen to Patricia and folks who are sharing? I better speed up.”
Hit again. “I’m not even seeing these people. It’s “Hi-Bye” and on to the next. There was no noticing the beauty of each, no sense of lingering there.
So I began again. I decided to take five seconds for each of us, and to look inside every one. A voice intruded: “But you won’t get around to everybody!” I paused, and realized the voice was correct. Perhaps, though, the ones not gazed upon will somehow be included.
I reached 59 souls before the call ended, including me
It was enough