I often ask myself how I can contribute to people during this time of coronavirus. The physical basics are clear: Keep myself well so I don’t infect anyone. Wash my hands a lot … for twenty seconds. Stay at least six feet away from other human beings.
In the emotional and spiritual arena, I’ve been on the phone with local friends and on Zoom with friends from far away. On my daily walks, I really say hi to those who come my way.
All of this is good.
This morning I decided to meditate for a long time. I sensed that this was another way to impact the world. You may be asking “How can sitting in a chair for an hour and emptying your mind do any good in this crisis?” And I don’t have a rational answer for you. As I reflect on this right now, with my laptop on my lap, I simply know, at some mysterious level, that my time in meditation makes a difference.
Just so you know, there’s no emptying the mind of thoughts. Trying to get rid of them doesn’t work. By grace, over time, the thoughts lessen in intensity, duration and frequency. And so it was this morning. The space within was clear and quiet. The bouncing ball at one point just stopped bouncing. Later on, a few bounces returned, but they faded away again.
I didn’t feel like I was sending love to all of us swimming through the pandemic. For a long time the word “give” was with me as I sat in the chair, but it was like I was in the middle of giving and being given to, rather than an active doer. Then even “give” disappeared. The awareness of love disappeared. All was quiet. There was radiation outward for awhile … then that too went “Poof!”
I sat for nearly two hours. Near the beginning, thoughts of setting a new time record came, and thankfully went. For the rest of the time, there was no feeling of achievement, no feeling of Bruce. But something was cooking. Once again, I know this is true.
Am I deluded? No
Am I strange? Yes
Am I contributing? For sure