In Christian theology, kenosis is the self- emptying of Jesus’ own will and becoming entirely receptive to God’s divine will.
Over and over, Jesus lays this path before us. There is nothing to be renounced or resisted. Everything can be embraced, but the catch is to cling to nothing. You let it go. You go through life like a knife goes through a done cake, picking up nothing, clinging to nothing, sticking to nothing. And grounded in that fundamental chastity of your being, you can then throw yourself out, being able to give it all back, even giving back life itself. That’s the kenotic path in a nutshell. Very, very simple. It only costs everything.
Cynthia Bourgeault
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Alrighty then … I’ll just fall into a life of contribution with no thought for the reward, no need to achieve anything or to be adored. “Just give, Bruce, moment after moment, until your breathing stops. Have your life be a symphony, with all those marvelous folks flowing beside you, playing with you, creating magic together.” And no need to have them live in your house, to be enclosed by the constraints of your mind. Enjoy them, and let them go. Over and over.
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What am I willing to let float away?
Being in Senegal
Being loved by Ali and Mariama
Being loved by my Belgian friend Lydia
Being healthy
Being in the Evolutionary Collective
Living a long time
Listening to concerts from the front row
Eating pesto pasta
Volunteering with 11-year-olds
Watching Mamma Mia: Here We Go Again for the umpteenth time
Picking up garbage on my way to the Belmont Diner
Sitting at the counter or at “the women’s table” at the Diner
Travelling … anywhere
Making people laugh
Writing these blog posts
Having another life partner
Living past tomorrow
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Quite the list of things to let go of
Quite the opportunity to give without restraint or expectation
Quite the smile on my face
WOW!
Bruce gone and fully here at the same time