It’s a strange life, with the body sometimes just zipping along and at other times dragging its feet. My feet are low right now and it’s such a opportunity to see what life is really all about.
What’s possible in the moment when you’re hurting physically? To what extent can we move beyond the yuckiness to truly be with people? These are good questions because I intend to contribute to my fellow travellers no matter what life is serving up.
I’ve discovered that I often cough when I’m moved by other folks, when I’m feeling love. That started happening in Belgium when I was enjoying the presence of Lydia and Jo and their family and friends. Then we went to Senegal and the openness of the people touched me deeply. “I’m glad you’re here” came up to me again and again.
Other parts of Senegal were not so kind, especially to my lungs. Toubacouta is in a very dry area and the town has dirt streets. Dust floated everywhere, including into me.
A lot of people moved about on motos – small motorcycles. They not only stirred up the dust, their tailpipes spewed out exhuast fumes without any pollution controls. I spent a lot of time on the back of a moto. When we travelled on the highway, passing cars and trucks fed me more poisonous gas.
Finally, some folks near me smoked. I often moved away when they were lighting up.
Given all these inputs, what to do? Certainly not hide out in my room. The beauty of the Senegalese people far outweighed my breathing problems. I continued to interact with the kids and adults, to joy in their joy, to revel in a deep level of personal contact with each other. And I’ll do exactly that when I come back in December.
In Senegal, I coughed a lot and Lydia worried about me. Back home in Canada, the doctor says I have bronchitis and penicillin will fix me up fine over the next few days.
I got home last night and soon had a two-hour internet call with about forty members of the Evolutionary Collective. This was a call we had all agreed to be on and there’s great power in keeping your word. But the coughing was out of hand and I felt myself contract. “These people shouldn’t be exposed to all this noise you’re making.” Well, that is an opinion but it wasn’t going to hold sway with me.
Soon into the session, we were paired up. “Jessica” spoke for the first five minutes. I worked hard on suppressing the cough instead of totally being with her. Then it was my turn. Speak, cough, speak, cough … My eyes kept leaving Jessica’s, and then returning. She just was with me, all of me. I felt so naked and yet so loved. Everything was fine, even my body’s loud reactions to congestion. Thank you, Jessica.
Later seven of us did an exercise together. Part of the experience was to have each person read the agreements we were entering into. When it was my turn, I couldn’t get the words out so others took turns picking up the slack. One more time I felt included.
Yes, these moments are gifts if I have the eyes to see. And I intend to keep looking.