I sat down to meditate this afternoon. In my meditation chair in my bedroom. And opened my eyes again two hours and fifty minutes later. I’d never experienced anything like it.
Within a few minutes (I guess), everything stopped. My head dropped. I was fully aware but there was this huge space inside my head. Thoughts would occasionally come but they had no power. All was quiet.
Sometimes I had the thought “I should stop.” But why? I was in my comfy chair. No back pain. Slumping into a deep silence. Keep going. Keep letting it unfold.
Two hours later, I had to pee, and the feeling built. Eventually I gave in and opened my eyes. Almost three hours.
How long could I have gone on? I don’t know. With pre-urination, I suppose it could have been hours more.
Everything was so quiet. I heard the snowplow outside, dealing with the winter dump of snow. The furnace came on. Nothing was important. Time stretched on effortlessly.
Sometimes there were words. “Love.” And that brought a little smile to my face. “I am free.” And the head bowed again. The sweetest times were when I was in love with people. Less so when I felt into my ease. But all of it was fine.
This is a very long time. No tension. Just floating. “Please don’t have this end” sat beside “It’s perfectly fine when this ends.” They were friends.
It’s by grace that all this came upon me. Will it ever come back again, to the tune of 2:50? Maybe not. But what a blessing for a Friday afternoon. Thank you, o mysterious powers of the universe.