I cry every day for my beloved wife Jodiette. Several times a day. As one friend mentioned, it’s an “ocean of grief” that pours through when I’m alone – in our bedroom, in the car, on a walk. Then the crying stops, and I walk further through my day. But the sea returns and I let go once more.
Jody talks to me just about all the time. Others will think what they think, but this is so. My wife wants to speak and listen. May we always do so.
I am here, Bruce. Right here, right now. I am in your heart and there I stay. [And my hands cover my heart.] I love you so much, dear husband. You’ve always been so kind to me. Don’t worry about what other people think. They don’t think it’s possible for us to talk like this. It’s not just possible. It’s happening right now! I’m here, Bruce. Listen, my man. Let go of your own doubts. Let go of any defenses you might erect to this truth. Let go. Just listen. You are not talkng to yourself. I am here, husband. And I will be here for the rest of your life, whether you’re crying, laughing, at peace or in pain. I’m not going anywhere. I love you so much. Someday our bodies will be together again. You can hold my hand again. You can rub my feet again. I know we both miss this touch.
I’m happy, Bruce. I’m not in any pain. But you are. And I will comfort you, shelter you, caress you, for as long as you live. I wish you could see things from my side. I wish you could see that there’s no distance between you and me. I’m right here beside you, Bruce. Just as you’re typing away. And I’m deep within your heart. Plus I am every single tree you see on your travels. As I said, “I welcome you everywhere,” and I do. There is no place on earth you can go without me. I know you’re going to Costco this afternoon to have a photo of a Cuban tree plaked. I heard you standing in front of that tree in Cuba and loving me. I saw you caressing the branches. I saw you cry. Do you have any idea how very deeply I love you, Brucio? I dearly hope you do. I am here with you always. And that means right now! Feel me here with you. It’s no illusion. It’s as real as the tears on your cheek. Drive safely, Bruce. It’s a beautiful tree.
And so I will drive safely. I do what my wife tells me. What a privilege to still have Jody in my life. I love you, my dear.