A long time ago, in a province far, far away … I was a trainee in Werner Erhard’s est program. A weekend for us in Vancouver had been scheduled and we had homework to complete beforehand. One item on the list caught my attention: “Clean your fridge.” So down-to-earth, not really transformational at all.
Except it was. Once soggy veggies and scum-laden crevices had been dispensed with, I gazed in wonder at the shiny freshness. On the flight west, I marvelled at the release I felt, and images of my dear fridge kept appearing.
Then there’s now. Seems like the lessons take time to sink in. An unopened box sits in the den at the front of my home. It’s done that for a month now. Inside no doubt is a new printer. My old one really struggled with the latest Microsoft update and the future looks bleak for this model that’s been left behind. You could say that it’s not really a problem, since printed pages continue to spew out of the beast.
But then there’s my mind. “I bet it’ll take a couple of hours to set up the new printer. Probably there’ll be stuff I don’t understand and I’ll be stuck on hold with the folks at Hewlett-Packard.” However I spin it, the basic fact is that I told myself I’d do X, and X keeps sitting there, sticking its tongue out at me. My printer energy is stuck, and that’s not good enough for this fellow who wants to flow out into the world.
It’s 6:30 pm right now and I choose not to begin the box-opening saga, but I promise you I will get the new one going tomorrow daytime. Whatever I write about tomorrow evening, I’ll attach a note about my progress/success. So there.
I get there’s power here. Moving unfinished to finished. In the past few days, I’ve done a few simple things that leave me with a head held high:
1. I cut my toenails. No big deal? Wrong. The arthritis in my right wrist makes it hard to wield toenail clippers, but I persisted. It took a long time and I don’t care. I’m tempted to attach a pic of my toes but perhaps I’ll choose discretion.
2. I cleaned the shower, finally figuring out that wearing knee pads would allow me to really give ‘er with the brush for minutes at a time. I don’t care if I never clued in before. I now have a clean shower.
3. This is an unmentionable concerning the human body so I won’t mention it. But it’s been a long time coming and (Praise the Lord!) the deed is done. Definitely no photos of this one.
4. I … dusted. And swept. Where exactly did all this flotsam and jetsam come from? No matter, the accumulation is now residing at the bottom of my garbage can.
5. Over the last week, I phoned three friends to see how they’re doing. We haven’t seen each other in person since March. Very cool people, each their own distinct flavour of humanity. We met.
Hmm. My head is higher. There’s a spring to my step. The flow is flowing once more.
And yet one more vestige of incompletion remains. Another dear friend hasn’t heard from me for awhile. So when my tapping, proofreading and sending is done in a few minutes, I’ll give her a dingle.