I get to try on other human beings in my dreams … such as last night.

I was at a weekend seminar, something about technology.  I didn’t know much, so I kept asking questions of a guy – maybe the organizer.

Finally, I guess he’d had enough:

Go away

Don’t ask you any more questions?

It’s simpler than that.  Stay away from me!

I’m sorry that I’ve bothered you

You’re a mean person.  Not absentmindedly mean … purposefully mean

(Gulp)

***

So there you have it: I’m a thoroughly bad person.  So different from how I perceive myself.

And it was so vivid!  The foaming anger that pierced my heart.

I have a problem with people being furious with me.  How to stay centered.  How not to collapse.  How to be good to the next person I meet.

So mysterious … both the meanderings and rapids of this river called life