I’ve done nothing. I’ve simply written down what I heard from the Gods
Giacomo Puccini (classical music composer)
Sometimes I structure things, I lay out plans, I have a clear view of the road ahead. That’s okay. There’s a certain meek satisfaction there. But it often feels dull. Yes, I have to put the work in to accomplish things, and indeed they do get done, but there’s another realm … of juice.
Mr. Puccini wrote twelve operas. He needed a broad musical knowledge to accomplish that, but there was a beyond. He listened. Unknown guides were whispering in his ear, and he allowed himself to fall forward into the mist, to trust that a vaster mind was placing gifts in his hands. Please, let me be so orchestrated.
I’ve learned not to censor the words that tumble from my mouth. Oh, I still hear the ancient tones of “Be Careful” but they don’t hold sway. I respect such acquaintances but I don’t wrap my arms around them. It’s more like nodding as I acknowledge their presence.
Today was a hug. As I was doing the Mutual Awakening Practice with a partner, the world was flowing free. I was being carried by a lilt in the voice, a spring in the step. And then the revelation landed from the nether regions:
I have happy fingers!
Yes, it was true. “They get to hang out together, and bobble and wobble together. The fingies touch and then bounce away. And you know what’s the best? They’re all part of this … hand! They’re part of a whole, one that can wave, and hold things, and rest on my lap. My happy fingers never get lost out there in the sky. They have a home – always connected, always a part of something big.”
Perhaps Giacomo Puccini is proud of me today. I wasn’t measured or effective. I was dancing to the whims and whispers from other lands.