It’s been two weeks since I’ve talked to you. Have I been “busy”? Yeah, some. But the truth is that I just didn’t feel like writing to you. There was no magnetism drawing my fingers to the keys. I know that my life is about contributing to other human beings, and sometimes in WordPress the “should” of saying something has been strong. Sometimes I would write just to keep my daily streak of communication going. At those moments, I wasn’t being true to myself. This two-week absence has felt true. And now it’s time to return.
I woke up this morning with an uncomfortable thought: maybe you folks think I’m dead. Ouch. I never want to hurt anybody, and what if some of you are imagining a car accident, a big illness, or a major mental distress? None of those are true but leaving you in the space of not knowing was unfair. I’m sorry if I caused you worry. I should have just done a post saying “I don’t want to write right now. I’m fine. It could be a week or two before I reappear.” That would have been good.
Hmm. I’m glad I’m saying these things. And I’m glad that I honoured the rhythms of my life by not writing lengthy posts recently. And now … it’s time to share my thoughts again. I’ll be back tomorrow.
4 thoughts on “My Absence”
Happy Canada Day, Happy to hear you are not dead 🙂 The word “should” needs to be removed from the whole entire world, you feel like writing you do, you don’t feel like writing you don’t, your blog your rules my friend!
Thank you, Donna. Leaving should behind …
Oh, Bruce!!! I always knew you were fine….flow, dear friend! Do what feels good, at the time!
Thank you, Adele. Flowing along …