I don’t know. Somewhere that doesn’t honour the written word.
“But you love writing.” Yes I do.
“But as someone in your childhood world said, ‘The proof of the pudding is in the eating.’ How can you say you love something if you never do it?”
I wouldn’t say “never”. It’s been a month, or maybe six weeks. “Pretty close to “never”, I’d say. What don’t you just get your rear in gear and be like Nike?”
In the months following Jody’s death, I gave myself little gifts. One of those was a Jackie Evancho DVD called Awakening. I didn’t watch it … until tonight.
Jackie has a voice for the ages. On “America’s Got Talent” she blew the world apart with classical gems such as “Nessum Dorma”. I remember the energy coursing through me.
So tonight I set myself up for ecstasy. After all, this is Jackie Evancho. I had to love the singing and the songs. There can’t be any other response. Except there was.
1. The video quality was poor. Blurry. And on medium and long shots of Jackie, little white horizontal lines would flicker on her face and arms.
2. Most of the songs were dull, with very little potential for lifting me up. One reviewer likened it to elevator music. There were beauties: “Think Of Me” from Phantom of the Opera, “Made To Dream” and “Say Something”. But pretty much I was flat in response.
“Oh, Bruce. Something’s wrong with you. This is the most beautiful voice you’ve ever heard.” I agree that Jackie sang sweetly, but where was the soul?
3. I don’t think Jackie was totally “there”. It didn’t seem like she loved most of the songs. Her smiles were small.
I should be writing
I should be loving this DVD
I should be happy all the time