A few days ago, I went to a London Lightning basketball game with two friends. Last night, I was at a London Knights hockey game on my own. I didn’t like either game.
I’ve always loved seeing sports events but clearly “always” no longer fits. It’s more of the same internal conversation that I’ve been having with myself since coming back from the meditation retreat – “Bruce is …” > “Actually no, he isn’t.”
There weren’t many people at the basketball game. “That’s it. I feed off the crowd’s energy. No wonder I was flat.” But there were 9000 souls in Budweiser Gardens last night. Lots of crowd noise. Except for the guy sitting in Section 303, Row H, Seat 6.
“I need to share the experience with someone.” Jody and I went to lots of Knights games and had a good time. Well, my friends were right beside me at the basketball game but none of us “entered the excitement”.
Last night, I was way up high in the arena. It was a good view, but the players looked really small. “Okay then, I need to be close to the action, to feel the thrill of Mitch Marner exploding down the ice and blasting a shot into the net.” However, we sat only ten rows from the court at the basketball game.
Well, Bruce. You know this. Happiness is an inside job. You can keep adding marvelous events to your life, and there’s nothing wrong with that. Actually that’s exactly what you’re doing in the next few months … Toronto; Cuba; Haida Gwaii; Cambridge, Ontario. But what will you bring forth in those strings of moments? That’s up to you. It appears that team sports no longer draw you, even though you enjoy the sports section of the newspaper. But the experiences that currently animate your life – lovely friends, concerts, beaches, tall ships and golf tournaments – are all on the outside. Bring forth you.