The Colle delle Finestre

It’s a mountain pass in the Alps of northern Italy, and today some of the best male cyclists on Earth will tackle its slopes. 

It’s the second last day of the Giro d’Italia, one of the three Grand Tours of professional cycling.  Isaac del Toro from Mexico leads Richard Carapaz from Ecuador by 43 seconds.  Today’s climb should tell the story of winning and losing the tour.

And guess where I’ll be?  Sitting in my living room, stuck to my TV.

The Colle delle Finestre is the star of the show today.  The road goes uphill for about eighteen kilometres.  And for seven of those kilometres the surface is gravel.  The average gradient is nine percent.  Here’s what that looks like.  Imagine yourself on a bicycle for an hour or two climbing this …

The maximum slope on the climb is sixteen percent.  Oi!  A battle for the strongest.  The rest will fall back.  Team strategy will mean nothing.  The legs and heart (physical and emotional) will rule the day.

Ten years ago, my television gluing would have been about the Toronto Maple Leafs fighting for the Stanley Cup in professional ice hockey, not the heroics of Richard and Isaac.  Times change.  Passions come and go, to be replaced by new ones.  A life flows.

My favourite rider is Carapaz.  He attacks (which admittedly is a strange word for sports).  Basically he speeds up out of the large group of cyclists (the peleton) and tries to leave them all behind.  So exciting.

And so …

Go, Richard!

The Future

What if the world no longer speaks … but instead sings?

What if the world no longer writes sentences and paragraphs … but instead flows in poetry?

What if the world no longer walks … but instead dances?

What if the world is no longer separate … but instead is together?

What if the world no longer judges … but instead empathizes?

What if the world no longer says “Look at me” … but instead says “Look at you”?

What if the world no longer pushes … but instead pulls?

What if the world no longer follows … but instead leads?

What if the world no longer builds walls … but instead builds bridges?

What if the world no longer utters a four-letter swear word … but instead says “love”?

What if the world no longer lives “ethnocentric” … but instead embraces “worldcentric”?

What if the world no longer cares about your house and car … but instead cares about your heart?

What if the world no longer chooses grey and black … but instead picks red, yellow and blue?

What if the world no longer has “No” as a default position … but instead goes for “Yes”?

What if the world no longer reveres straight lines and right angles … but instead follows the curves?

What if the world no longer says “I’m right” … but instead chooses “I’m real”?

What if the world no longer lectures ad nauseum … but instead knows when to stop?

Like now

Elizabeth Sees …

I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you.  I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me.  I love you for the part of me that you bring out

Elizabeth Barrett Browning

So wise, Elizabeth.  I wish I could have known you, shared a coffee, shared a hug.

I continue to scan the world of people for those who show me the heart of me.  I have met many of these gentle folks.  They are a gift.  And there is more giving to come.

I await new friends

Lille

Lille in northern France is infinitely more than a Springsteen concert.  First, it was about people.  Here are two lovely folks from Ireland.  We sat beside each other on a big square near Grand Place … watching all manner of humanity pass by and weaving together stories from our lives.

Then there was Pizzeria Il Piccolino on an out-of-the-way street near the centrum.  What you see is my favourite meal in the world – pesto pasta, supplemented by an Italian beer and delightful conversation.  A 21-year-old woman was being fêted by her mother in celebration of a young birthday.  I did what any normal human being would do … sang her “Joyeuse Anniversaire à Toi”.  All three of us smiled.

A place to rest and watch people sitting, picnicking and throwing a long ball-and-ribbon to their dog.  On a lazy Monday afternoon.

I liked all the iron railings on all the balconies.  I just wished people had been on them, enjoying the air with me.

One more:

Lille … turning worlds upside down

Stand Up

Bruce Springsteen was many things on Saturday night.  Among them was his love for a band of fifty years:

The heart-stopping, pants-dropping, house-rocking, earth-quaking, booty-shaking, Viagra-taking, love-making, legendary … E Street Band

He also spoke for his country (and all countries), saying something like this:

The only difference between democracy and authoritarianism is you and me

And he sang of America’s present and future in “Long Walk Home”:

My father said “Son, we’re lucky in this town
It’s a beautiful place to be born
It just wraps its arms around you
Nobody crowds you and nobody goes it alone
You know that flag flying over the courthouse
Means certain things are set in stone
Who we are, what we’ll do and what we won’t”

It’s gonna be a long walk home
Hey, pretty darling, don’t wait up for me
Gonna be a long walk home

Then Donald Trump was centre stage in “House of a Thousand Guitars”:

The criminal clown has stolen the throne
He steals what he can never own
May the truth ring out from every small town bar
We’ll light up the house of a thousand guitars

Well it’s alright, yeah it’s alright
Meet me darlin’ come Saturday night
All good souls from near and far
Will meet in the house of a thousand guitars

Here come all the good souls

50,000

Off the bus, walking briskly on the sidewalk, finding that my Gate K is on the far side of the stadium.  As I circled Pierre Mauroy, Bruce Springsteen and the E Street Band started.  It was one of my favourite songs – “No Surrender”.  I smiled as familiar words poured out of the arena.  I was in the presence of Springsteen … I just couldn’t see him.

Finally to K.  The security check was fast, probably because nearly everybody was already in their seats.

My goal was Section 23.  Many steps upwards and I was there.  Row 60 … more up.  Seat 45.  Bruce was in the middle of a song so I sat in the aisle till he was done.

Then I looked to my left and tried to communicate to the fellow in French.  “Quelle place êtes-vous?” didn’t get the job done.  I sat back down as the next song began.  When it was over, I tried again, and managed to understand “Seat 56”.

(Repeat the sitting and standing for the next song)

I looked to my right – another gentleman.  He spoke English!  “Seat 55.”  So at least I knew my direction.

One more time: sit … then stand.  “Pardon.  Excusez-moi” as person after person let me pass.  And then …

Seat 45

Home at 19:55

***

I sat and stood and sang enthralled for over two hours.  “The River”, “Badlands”, “Dancing in the Dark” … and one huge etcetera.

Bruce was tiny but the big screens showed me his sweat.  How can somebody so old throw himself around so much, sing so much, do guitar solos so much?  Thank you Bruce.  And Nils, Steve, Max, Roy, Jake, Garry, Soozie and all you other guys.

Here’s a photo of the crowd waving our arms in unison for some anthem (that I forget) near the end of the show.  Magnifique!

And then there was getting home to my Airbnb.  It took two hours.  That’s all right.  The previous two hours were stunning.

I smiled all night as I slept

A Day in the Life

I’m playing catch-up … back to Saturday. 

I knew the day would be a challenge: play well at the cello concert, catch the train to Lille, roar into my Airbnb to get basic instructions, roar out of my Airbnb for a bus to Stade Pierre Mauroy, do whatever gymnastics are necessary to go through security and find my seat and …

Sit down

On Saturday morning, I decided not to do my recently usual two hours of cello practice.  I was thrilled with the effort I had put in on the days before.  Concert day meant trusting my fingers would remember the pieces.

I wore my newly favourite shirt … a white one.  And lo and behold, so did Max, who sat beside me onstage. 

There stood Lieven before the 35 of us: our conductor and cello teacher, smiling away, exhorting us to give all we had for the half-hour concert. 

I had my moments of union … with the music and with the other members of the orchestra.  We played nine short pieces.  Each one had four different cello parts.  Occasionally my group had the melody.  My favourite time was when we were playing a piece from “Finlandia” by the composer Jean Sibelius.  I could feel my playing blending with other melodies onstage. 

My moments of ecstasy were few, even though passion often came through my fingers and bow.  Often the notes were wrong, the rhythm was wrong, the sound was scratchy … or I was lost.  (Sigh)

However: I’m playing the cello again!  And Saturday it was in an orchestra.  Good for me.

After our bow to the audience at the end, I rushed off the stage, packed up my cello in its case, brought it over to the cello teacher Vincent for safekeeping, grabbed my suitcase and walked as fast as a human being could to the tram stop ten minutes away.

I caught the 16:15 tram to the Gent Sint-Pieters station, caught the 16:37 train to Lille, and caught my breath.

The mission continued to be accomplished.  The train transfer supposedly needed at Kortrijk wasn’t necessary.  “Stay on this train for Lille, sir.”  Thank you, I’ll do that.

Lille at 17:50.  Springsteen concert at 19:30.  Piece of cake, I thought.  Ten minute walk to the Airbnb.  Get fast and basic instructions from Sel, my host.  He recommended I take the subway (métro) to the stadium rather than my planned bus.

Out of there, shuffling down the street towards the bus.  Seeing the métro sign, I made an executive decision: subway, not bus.  “Figure out how to pay.  Figure out which line to take and what stop to get off at.  I can do this!”

“The best laid plans of mice and men” is a line from the poet Robert Burns.  Sometimes so true.  A kind man who spoke English helped me with the ticket-dispensing machine.  The map told me “Line 1 to Pierre Mauroy”.  And there was a stairway down to the track.

Only one problem: about fifty people were crammed together at the top of the stairs, with a female transit employee speaking loudly to them (in French, of course).

It took a minute or two, but I figured it out – the subway was shut down!  Difficultés techniques.  (Sigh again)

Because I’d made the subway choice, I missed the bus to the stadium.  The next bus was … late.  As in half-an-hour late.

I stood at the stop with about thirty of my favourite concertgoers.  Finally, here comes the bus.  The word “full” would be an exaggeration, but only slightly.

Thus ensued the most crammed bus ride of my life.  I had a lovely talk with a woman shorter than me.  I needed to grab the pole just above the top of her head.  Her hair felt nice.  At one point, the bus rounded a corner at speed.  “I’m goin’ down!” I thought.  I lifted my other hand to grab the pole too … and smacked a fellow in the jaw with my elbow!  “Pardon, monsieur.”  He smiled.

At 19:32, the bus regurgitated approximately half the population of Lille onto the sidewalk near Stade Pierre Mauroy.  I could feel my hand again.

Surely Bruce wouldn’t be starting till 20:00 or later …

To be continued

Pooped

What an adventure the last 24 hours have been … and before.  There’s so much to say and so little energy to say it.  I’ll start with a few words.  Much more later.

I’m exhausted.  Slept two hours in the middle of the day.  I have today and tomorrow to explore Lille but I sure haven’t done much so far.  And I’m fine with that.  My body is speaking.

There’s something I’ve done that I’ve never done before – practice my music two hours a day for seven or eight days.  The cello and me.  We performed with about 35 other cellists yesterday afternoon.  The two of us are brothers … I feel it.  Tired brothers.  The intensity has caught up with me.

It’s so unrealistic to expect me to be “on” all the time, but it’s what my small, petty voice pushes at me.  Well, dear voice, you’re entitled to your opinion but I travel elsewhere.

That’s enough words for the moment.  I’m off in search of a restaurant that serves pesto pasta.

Toys

I love going to Huset for lunch.  Many friends have joined me there, and yesterday it was Prabigya.

Saartje is one of the employees and she knows me well.  As I waited for Prabigya to arrive, here comes Saartje with a wicker box.

“Last time you really liked the dinosaur that sits on the front counter so I decided to bring you more of them to play with.”

And lo and behold, the box was brimming with animals of various types.

I’m glad Saartje can see my true nature.  I like playing.  I like playing with people, to see if I can get them to laugh.  I like playing with jigsaw puzzles.  I like playing with cellos.

I gently lifted all these creatures from their home and set them on the table.  No Prabigya yet.  I thought it would be a fine welcome to have these beings all facing her.  So I set them up.  The golden horse on the right of the picture was being ornery.  He kept falling over.  Luckily the table top wasn’t perfectly level and I found a spot that would make him happy.  He neighed, as horses are wont to do.

I attempted a conversation about horses not standing up with the fellow who was on his computer at the next table … but he wasn’t interested.  Oh well.

As you can see, dinosaurs are well represented on the table.  No doubt Prabigya will be pleased.  But I didn’t want them to be front and centre.  There was a clear star of the show:

A pink pig

I knew that my friend wouldn’t be able to resist the charms of this chubby one.  So there he or she sat at the head of the parade.

***

Prabigya laughed

There was still lots of room for our drinks

In the Back of My Brain

Two weeks ago, I wrote a post called “The Next Song”.  I told you that I was learning a new song to sing at open mic sessions in June … “How Can I Keep From Singing?”  The lyrics and melody are lovely.

What I didn’t anticipate was how committed I was becoming to playing well with thirty other cellists this Saturday.  I’ve been practicing for two hours a day for nearly a week.  Unprecedented for this guy!

With my three days in Lille, France coming up right away, I’ve realized that I don’t have time to learn a new song.  I’ve discovered that there are different levels to memorizing.  In order to perform well, accompanied by the nervousness I feel in front of an audience, the words need to be supremely firm in my head.  I won’t get there between now and then.

There is another song that I was working on months ago.  It’s called Spring and Summer”, written by John Denver.  I trust that I’m far enough advanced that I will calmly sing the words well in June.

What boggles my mind, however, is the song I woke up with this morning … “Catch the Wind”.  It was written by the Scottish folksinger Donovan in 1965.  Here it is:

In the chilly hours and minutes
Of uncertainty, I want to be
In the warm hold of your loving mind
To feel you all around me
And to take your hand, along the sand
Ah, but I may as well try and catch the wind

When sundown pales the sky
I want to hide awhile, behind your smile
And everywhere I’d look, your eyes I’d find
For you to love me now
Would be the sweetest thing
That would make me sing
Ah, but I may as well try and catch the wind

When rain has hung the leaves with tears
I want you near, to kill my fears
To help me to leave all my blues behind
For standin’ in your heart
Is where I want to be, and I long to be
Ah, but I may as well try and catch the wind

Ah, but I may as well try and catch the wind

I have never sung this song in public.  I have no memory of learning it.  And yet in the shower this morning, the words flowed sweetly out of my mouth.

How is this possible?

I don’t know and I don’t care

There will be two songs in June