I woke up this morning with a thought:

This is all there is

And now to delve into what the this is …

I’m loving Philip Pullman and Stephen King – two authors creating characters who sit close beside me.

Last night I decided to try a new writer on for size: Kurt Vonnegut.  Slaughterhouse Five is a classic. 

I started in.  Twenty pages later I said “What am I doing here?”  The story apparently will be centered on the Allied fire bombing of Dresden, Germany in World War II and Kurt’s time in a concentration camp.  The first pages were a jumble for me, with virtually no character development … no one to love.

I was bored.  I tossed the book on the couch, not knowing if I’ll fall in love during some future chapter.

“I’ll watch a movie.”  I was partway through A Wrinkle in Time and I decided to continue.  A young girl Meg was searching for her father who may have discovered a portal to another universe.  She was aided by three loving protectors: Mrs. Which, Mrs. Who and Mrs. Whatsit.

I was enthralled with Mrs. Which, played by Oprah Winfrey.  When she looked at Meg, she went way deep inside the girl.  Mrs. Which had some wise things to say, but I didn’t care much about that.  It was the contact.

Later in the film there was lots of action, as the bad guys tried to stop the journey.  My heart faded away from the story.  “Hmm … I wonder what’s happening.”

I went to YouTube.  I watched one of my favourite videos – Lara Landon singing The Blessing.  She was seeping through the screen to my eyes.

The Lord bless you and keep you
Make His face shine upon you and be gracious to you
The Lord turn His face toward you
And give you peace

Lara was giving me peace.

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And then this morning …

What if the only important thing in life is to look into the eyes of another and exchange God stuff?

What if all those well-meaning people praising money, inner peace, nature, self-esteem, comfort, intelligence, fitness, security … are wrong?

Is this all there is?

I wonder