Yesterday one of the leaders of the Evolutionary Collective invited me to be the Zoom host for a new weekly practice session.

My body sighed as I read the e-mail.  I don’t remember thinking, just the body slumping.  I told my friend that I’d sleep on it.

For the rest of the day, the decision to be made occasionally came into my mind … and then floated away.  I had no interest in analyzing the pro’s and cons.

I had fun watching a mountain bike race on TV.  I continued memorizing the words of “Angel” – a song I intend to sing at an open mic on May 3.  And I dabbled on the piano, seeking the chords for another song – “Reason to Believe”.

And then sleep beckoned …

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Dozing in bed as the sun continued its rising, I heard a single word: No.

I just e-mailed my friend and told her what is so.  A smile is here.  I don’t have much experience in saying no.  But here I am. 

Am I worried about disappointing my friend?  No

Am I a “bad person” for not helping out?  Certainly not

I never want my motivation for doing something to be obligation.  What a withering away of life force that is.  And my life force is precious to me. 

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My “No” feels soft …

Also powerful …

And lovely

It’s in calligraphy